Time's ticking

it's so hard to close my eyes when my mind is too full of thoughts. Problems dropped by one after another. Just when i thought that i managed to get things right.
My trust is fading...vows were broken. The single path we crossed end up in 2 directions, which shall be chosen, i dunno..

I prioritize bond, long term happiness and meaningful life. Time is short..
90 days = 2160 hours
Sleep : (720)
School : (144)
Asgnmnt : (128)
exam : (120)
Others : (105)
Time left : 943 hours = 39.3 days max.

unexpected return

I never expect that i would somehow return on blogspotting.lmao
it's a surprise, but here i am.

I was once turned myself into someone that i'm not, just to make an impression of "hi-i'm here-please notice me" and it surely didn't work out well. I know it never did. I'm basically born ignorant, and it's like the attitude that flows through all my veins and cells.

And I dunno why, i got a quite serious disease called " non-expressionistkimia". I ain't the type that let everyone knows about what i think and feel. To be precise, i dunno how.

It may not seem like it, but believe me i'm trying what i could to express myself about how i felt. Seems simple, but believe me, it's not for me. For those who had known me for years, they might be surprised of how much do i reveal myself to someone. Yet, i know it's not enough and please give me time to continue revealing fractions of my life.

Like an old saying, if there's a will, there'll be a way.
I'm done.

P.S : I lay my eyes, thought and heart only to my "present" =)