Friend

Friend...
Is someone who will support you
Someone who helps you whenever you have problems
Someone who will save you from loneliness
Someone who will save you from the darkness
Someone who will sacrifice them self to save you
Someone who will accompany you anytime you need them
Someone who you can share laughter and sadness together...............
someone you can depend on............Forever.....


Jason Muliadi

Life

Life.......
There’re a few definition of life
Most people will say that one’s alive if they’re breathing
When their heart is still beating
When they’re moving
But
To say someone’s alive is not only from the physics
Though the body is still functioning
Without a spirit, it means dead
There are so many people lost their spirits
They felt invincible in the society
No one cares about them
when they’re hurted, no one came to help
when they’re sad,there’s no one came to entertain them
what kind of life is that ?
there’s no one admit their existence
they live in a great sorrow
and trapped into the darkness
wish to die
maybe, by that way
no more sorrow
no more sadness
no more pressure
no more burden
they can find a real life
they can feel the joy and happiness
in the other world..............................


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The meaning of my life

I was walking alone
In the darkness
I can’t see anything
I am walking to nowhere
I don’t know where I am heading to
In my confusion
I saw a light
The light that brighten my path
The path of my life
I follow the light
Wishing it will last forever
So that I can see the truth
So that I can see the meaning of my life
Now I almost arrive
At the source of light
That I believe destined for me
It’s just a few more step
Before I reach it
But suddenly it disappear
Leaving me alone
Now I can’t see anything again
I’m lost for one more time
Why did the light left me?
I really need the light
To guide me out of this darkness
Without the light
Now I fall to deeper darkness
Then I whispered..Light...
You were meant for me................
You’re the light of my life................
Please don’t leave me here........................
Please.......
With your guidance.......................
Lead me until I can find.......
“The meaning of my life”


Jason Muliadi

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With only one foot to stand
Unbalanced ground
Nothing to hold
Left by one wing to balance
Searching for a stabilization
Similar to finding a needle in grass
Without precise path to cross
No destination
Where to go?

Jason Muliadi

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One day
I might leave you
It’s not because I want to
It’s because I have to
I might not be able to stay by your side
Not able to protect you
Not able to be seen by you
I might leave you
For the other world
That has been waiting me for so long
Waiting for me to join them
It’s not that I don’t love you anymore
It’s not that I hate you
It’s just our fate
I’m destined
To leave this world
Faster than you
However
Though I don’t have much time left
To be with you
I never regret this feeling
One day
I’ll disappear from your life
Completely invisible
But
Though you can’t see me
Trust me
That I’ll always be close to you
My spirit will keep you safe
I won’t really leave you
Cause I love you
And I will love you
Even at the time I left this world


Jason Muliadi

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I’ve shown you all my weakness
I’ve entrust you with my deepest secrets
Now you betray me
You said that you love me
Now
You say that it was a mistake
You never really love me
How come you say that?
Why you did this?
What have I done wrong?
I never really understand you
Cause you’re just that confusing
You said you’re sorry?
Yeah yeah
Keep that for your other guys
Guess they need that more than me
I’ll say to you
Thanks for the sweet memories you gave me
Hope u’ll be damned for what you did to me
you know what?
You’re wrong when you said you’re crazy
You definitely not crazy
Cause
You’re just “INSANE”

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World of black & white

The joy that we’ve been through
The love that we felt
The friend beside you
The freedom that people’s dreaming of
Never existed
It’s just an illusion
Created by our mind
By our thirst
By our greed
Wake up guys
Stop dreaming
Cause
The truth is
There’s no real joy
There’s nothing that is called “love”
There’s no true friend
There’s no freedom
Cause this world where we are living now
Is nothing more than
The world of emptiness
The world of loneliness
The world of sorrow
The world of Black & white

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Stupid

Me
Who am I?
I am no one
I am nothing
Everything always get deteriorated
My existence is trivial
My presence is replaceable
Is that my mistake?
Or
I have something stupid
By believing them


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Never

I know this day will come
Day when all my hope and dreams vanishes
In the second you want it to end
I try to be tough
Try to accept everything
When I get your answer
I’m not really surprised
Coz I know that you enjoy your life there too much
That’s why
Never give me hope
If it’s just an empty hope
Never care about me
If this is where it lead to
Never say that you’re sorry
Coz it doesn’t make any differences
Never say be a good friend
Coz it’ll be impossible
Never say it doesn’t have to be you
Coz you are the one that I want
Never say have a good one
Coz I’ve stopped dreaming to have one
Never start anything
If this is the answer
Never


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I regret

Everything seems to be perfect
Though I finally realise
It is impossible to have something flawless
I fulfil all my promises
They did not
I always be there for them
They did not
I rush when they call me
They are always late
Without repentance
They gave me hope
They also took it away
Now
There is no way
For me to believe in them
There is no respect for me
So
For trusting them
I regret


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Again

I thought that
You’re the one that is destined for me
The one that I can give everything
My hope
My love
My trust
The one that will accompany me
To my final rest
But
I guess that I’m wrong
You are also leaving me
Leaving me with great emptiness
Leaving a big scar
In my heart
I never imagined that it would turn out this way
But I guess
Again
I trust the wrong person
I love the wrong girl
The girl who betrayed my trust
Betrayed my love
Then
Here I am
Standing alone
With a great pain
Left by the one I love
Again



Jason Muliadi